I know that I haven’t written in way too long, but here’s a
little update on my life and a little encouragement for yours:
Most of you know that this is my first semester at a new
college, which just so happens to be Christian college. This has been a whole
new experience for me. I’ve grown up as a preacher’s daughter so I’ve pretty
much grown up in and around church but these past couple of months have brought
me to a brand new level of my walk with God. There is something about
submerging yourself in studying the Bible and the effect it has on your life.
Before I started at BCF, I was really struggling with the
fact that I’m single with really no prospects. Talking to other Christian girls,
I knew I wasn’t alone in this and I even knew that God should be enough. I even
wrote a blog on it a few months ago. That doesn’t change the fact that there
was a real struggle in my heart over it. Knowing that you have a personal
struggle and accepting that truth doesn’t make the struggle go away. In fact,
sometimes it makes it worse because you know that you are struggling with
something when God should be the answer for you. It is something that I have
spent many nights praying for the lonely feeling to go away. Much to my dismay,
it didn’t. I knew that love is patient, I knew that God is enough, but that
knowledge doesn’t make it any easier to be the 3rd wheel.
In the past couple of months, I have really been thrown into
a constant state of studying God’s word and reading books written by amazingly
gifted people. You know what I discovered? When I throw myself into really
immersing myself in Him, I don’t have time to worry about not having a guy.
Yes, there are still those Single Awareness Moments, but now I don’t dwell on
them. Moments that once would have left me feeling depressed, now I smile about
out of joy for the other people. I know that God has someone great in store for
me, and if I trust in Him and His plan instead of my own, It will be greatly
worth the wait.
Your Fellow Water Walker,
-Ashlee
p.s. Here’s the song that was running through my head the
whole time I was writing this blog: Rebecca St. James’ “Wait for Me”
